You know the old saying, "You don't have to go home, but you can't stay here." Well, that is my life in a nutshell right now. I've spent the last 23 years of my life in a constant state of familiarity and carelessness, mixed with irresponsibility and a heavy dose of laziness. I don't feel I've ever really "grown up." However, I think moving to China will dilute these qualities in a big way. This is the first time I actually feel like I'm "doing" something...do you know what I mean? I don't really know either. But all I know is I will no longer be able to veg-out in front of the TV for 59% of the day and sleep til noon, only to clean-up so I can go to lounge by the pool the rest of the afternoon. Granted, that sucks to give up all these perks, but it's long overdue. It's finally time to use my knowledge and energy for something productive. I know China will change me, I just hope I can make my family, friends, and future students proud of me. So, the party's over, and the Peace Corps is my sober-cab home.
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